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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 02:10:52 GMT

Hi, all. I'm a looser. I don't ever update my Xanga. I have a 56k modem at home... and it takes my whole life to say "hi" on this dumb site. So, if you care about me, post a comment and send a copy to all your friend. Then, you will have good luck in your life financially and romantically forever!

Friday, April 28, 2006

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 02:59:24 GMT

I think its time for a new layout and background pic.What do you think? New header maybe..profile pic? Yeah, the black and white needs to go.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 02:50:21 GMT

Yes, a few days have elapsed since I last posted. Oh well. Although, I have decided to post more often even if it is nothing more than a couple of sentences. Then, as my writing ability develops, my posts will get longer.
I'm in the process of writing a rough draft which due tomorrrow-not looking good. I suppose math homework will have to wait. After being sick for 2 days and then resting for 2 days, I fell behind in my homework and missed a test(disasterous). I was allowed to make up the test but totally bombed it. Oh well, flunking it shouldn't affect my grade too much; there are four more tests to take so if I do well on them I should be okay.
Thats all I have for now.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 23:54:50 GMT

AHH, Spring and the bugs are loving it too. They mysteriously appeared out of nowhere today.
I like days like this. Somehow, for some reason, the sun puts me in a good mood. Nothing special today, just the some old soil testing again. One good thing about it is I get to think alot, maybe too much, anyway I have time ponder many things and don't have to worry about people wondering what is wrong with me when I forget what I am doing because I am so engrossed in a particular thought and stand there like an idiot.

I was thinking today how blessed I am to have gone thru the recent trials I have been through. I have learned so much about God and his faithfulness. Thru all of this I have learned to know a lot of people better; for which I am so very thankful. Paul, in 2 Corinthians 1:10 says that, ...On Him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again. How awesome that is. Paul believed beyond the shadow of a doubt that God would deliver them or give them grace to get through the next trial. Now, what if it is a life or death situation and you end up dead ? Did God deliver you? Absolutely! " The LORD hath founded Zion, and in her the afflicted of his people find refuge. Isaiah 14:32b ...just a few of my thoughts

Monday, March 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 01:33:46 GMT

SPRING BREAK WOO HOO! I'm lovin this, I can actually get some sleep and work a full day. I kinda miss work. I m getting lazy. There is nothing like a hard days work to refresh the mind. I cant wait till spring when planting starts. I think it is my favorite time of year.

I am still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I'm not sure what the next step is. Whatever it is, moving out needs to be a part of it. It really bothers me that I still live at home. Before I move out it is necessary that I have a steady job though. The one I have now may not last too long. I ask the owners son the other day how long they wanted me and he said I could continue working for them on a part time basis. The problem is I need full time work. I can probably work thirty hours a week and still pay the bills but that will not leave much to pay for school. I suppose God will work it out. Funny how He always does. This week I was standing in line to sell my text books and a lady walked up and asked if any one in line needed a Math 101 book. She was going to drop it in the recycle box because the buyer didn't want it for some reason. I wasn't sure it was the one I needed so I didn't say anything but when my place in line reached the box, it was the exact book I needed! It probably would have cost me over a hundred dollars to buy it new! So you can see, God really does know our needs and provides. I thought it was quit providential that she had the book I needed. There are hundreds of text books floating around and it could have been any book but the one she had was the one I needed. I was pretty excited and thanked my Father a couple of times : )

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 03:14:16 GMT

The end of the quarter is finally here. I enjoyed it but I'm glad its over. I am especially happy to get a break from algebra. I feel like math has been my whole life since I started.It takes so much time and gives me a headache in the process. I worked nearly all day studying for today's final exam. It all paid off... I got an 88....can't complain about that. Good news...I got a B in the class so I guess the headaches and late nights paid off and most of all I thank God for His help.

I'm lovin this weather! The grass is greening up and the birds are singing in the morning...What could be better? I love spring: warm weather, planting, short sleeves, bright sunshine and every thing else that goes with it. This is my favorite time of the year to work outside, I don't know if I will be able to stay inside and work on homework like I should with all the sun going on outside. I suppose I could work on HW outside, that would be cool. I used to do that in high school though it was hard to stay focused.
gotta run...bedtime.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 21:58:54 GMT

I found this poem on Piper's wedsite and thought I would share it with everyone. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. If you like it; he has written many other poems that can be found on his site...check it out!

-Jason

Glorified

As far as any eye could see
There was no green. But every tree
Was cinder black, and all the ground
Was grey with ash. The only sound
Was arid wind, like spirits' ghosts,
Gasping for some living hosts
In which to dwell, as in the days
Of evil men, before the blaze
Of unimaginable fire
Had made the earth a flaming pyre
For God's omnipotent display
Of holy rage. The dreadful Day
Of God had come. The moon had turned
To blood. The sun no longer burned
Above, but, blazing with desire,
Had flowed into a lake of fire.
The seas and oceans were no more,
And in their place a desert floor
Fell deep to meet the brazen skies,
And silence conquered distant cries.

The Lord stood still above the air.
His mighty arms were moist and bare.
They hung, as weary, by his side
Until the human blood had dried
Upon the sword in his right hand.
He stared across the blackened land
That he had made, and where he died.
His lips were tight, and deep inside,
The mystery of sovereign will
Gave leave, and it began to spill
In tears upon his bloody sword
For one last time.

And then the Lord
Wiped every tear away and turned
To see his bride. Her heart had yearned
Four thousand years for this: His face
Shone like the sun, and every trace
Of wrath was gone. And in her bliss
She heard the Master say, "Watch this:
Come forth all goodness from the ground,
Come forth and let the earth redound
With joy." And as he spoke, the throne
Of God came down to earth and shone
Like golden crystal full of light,
And banished once for all the night.
And from the throne a stream began
To flow and laugh, and as it ran,
It made a river and a lake,
And everywhere it flowed a wake
Of grass broke on the banks and spread
Like resurrection from the dead.

And in the twinkling of an eye
The saints descended from the sky.

And as I knelt beside the brook
To drink eternal life, I took
A glance across the golden grass,
And saw my dog, old Blackie, fast
As she could come. She leaped the stream—
Almost—and what a happy gleam
Was in her eye.

I knelt to drink,
And knew that I was on the brink
Of endless joy. And everywhere
I turned I saw a wonder there.
A big man running on the lawn:
That's old John Younge with both legs on.
The blind can see a bird on wing,
The dumb can lift his voice and sing.
The diabetic eats at will,
The coronary runs uphill.
The lame can walk, the deaf can hear,
The cancer-ridden bone is clear.
Arthritic joints are lithe and free,
And every pain has ceased to be.

And every sorrow deep within,
And every trace of lingering sin
Is gone. And all that's left is joy,
And endless ages to employ
The mind and heart to understand
And love the sovereign Lord who planned
That it should take eternity
To lavish all his grace on me.

O God of wonder, God of might,
Grant us some elevated sight,
Of endless days. And let us see
The joy of what is yet to be.
And may your future make us free,
And guard us by the hope that we,
Within the light of candle four,
Are glorified forevermore.

By John Piper

Friday, March 10, 2006

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 01:37:43 GMT

Today turned out to be a very enjoyable day. I woke up happy and believe it or not I am still in a good mood. I hate melancholy days though they are probably good for me. I actually had something to do at work for a change; I cleaned tractors. Yeah, farmers clean their tractors, in fact we detail them.: )

If any of you ever get the opportunity to listen to John Piper you should definitely take advantage. I am so thankful for the ministry of John Piper. Before I started listening to him I had never heard anyone talk about delighting in God, much less how to accomplish. Well, actually you can't accomplish it, God has to do it. We delight in Him because he delights in us! We, who know Him, are a blessed people!

Let those who delight in my righteousness shout for joy and and be glad and say evermore, great is the LORD, who delights in the welfare of His servant!

Psalms 35:27

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 00:33:51 GMT

Resolved, that I will do whatsoever I think to be most to God' s glory, and my own good, profit and pleasure, in the whole of my duration, without any consideration of the time, whether now, or never so many myriads of ages hence. Resolved to do whatever I think to be my duty and most for the good and advantage of mankind in general. Resolved to do this, whatever difficulties I meet with, how many soever, and how great soever.

Johnathan Edwards, Resolution 1

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 00:24:59 GMT

Another day...homework, work and the same old boring routine. Seems like nothing ever changes. I'm ready for some big change like I dont know...I want to move far far away for a while...I think. Thank GOD for Sundays, I thoroughly enjoy Sundays. They kind of break up the week and also I get to listen to a lecture on something I really care about. Hmm a vacation would be good,...maybe I should go west...
School is going fairly well. I recieved an A+ on my last english paper...YES! I am finally getting my grades up in math and if I contiue at the same rate of improvement I should finish the class with an A or B...and then there is the other class...yeah, I really dont wanna talk about it...no one should be required to do a class presentation on near-death experiences, they just might experience one in the process : )
Cant wait till next qtr., I'm takin evening classes so I will can get a few hours in at work...its nearly planting season and the boss man'll need all the help he can get. I sure am looking foward to actualy having somethig to do...winter time on a grain is so patheticaly boring unless you have a CDL and can drive a semi.
...gotta go...chat at ya'll later